"Keep going, when you fail again and again; until you get what you want." That has been one of the most helpful words in my life. It is more encouraging than the words of people who try to encourage me. Since my childhood, I felt like I am always struggling to get something unusual or just to get a higher place, to distinguish myself from others.
When playing soccer, everybody knew that I was a bad player and I always had to be a goal keeper or a defender since I could not make any goals. That couldn’t keep me from playing it. I only knew one thing; if I keep playing and playing I will improve and at least, I will become a better player.
When I was in high school, I wasn’t doing very good in Maths and I was often annoyed by students who has already learned the lessons somewhere else and try to convince teachers that they’re smart. That is ridiculous, I thought. When everybody has finished the quizzes, I would often sit in silence, in the back rows, and think of how can I cope with these monsters who can finish in 3 minutes, it takes me 30 minutes and in the end, with an error. I felt like an idiot trying to cope with normal kids.
Weeks after the classes has started, I got angrier and started to think like an egoist. "Even if these morons can finish, why can’t I?" I admit that it is not a good attitude. However, there were some people, who helped me think that way; the smartest guys in the class. In my eyses, they looked so proud. And I got angry because I never wanted to be inferior to anyone.
At home, I would sit down with a blank paper and there would be scratches everywhere. Sometimes it took me about 2 hours to solve a trigonometry problem which other students can solve in less than 10 minutes. I wouldn’t move to the next lesson until I finish the lesson I am doing now, however difficult it may be. That was a blind confidence and it helped me a lot during those years. In the final exam, I could achieve one of the highest scores in mathematics, in my school.
That experience gives me the courage to keep going when my plans turn out to be a failure or when things seem impossible. It is no exageration to say that it helped me survive the worst days of my life; when I tried to leave med school to go abroad for study. Many people scoffed at my idea since I do not have enough financial resources. I see it as a similar math problem that I solved 5 years ago. I solved my high school maths and now I have grow up to solve today’s math problems.
These days, I study business and economics papers, which , at some points, make no sense at all. It gets worse in programming with all the strange codes. When I unpack a software, I feel terrible.” How will I be able to write such complex programs? Will I even learn in this life? “It is so overwhelming that I feel like it is impossible. Now I remember how I struggled with Maths during my high school days and it is a great lesson I learned from a great experience. Nothing is impossible if you persist! That is simple,”never give up!”.