Seems like I’m tired of waiting.

I’m a student who just left med school and wondering about my interests. I failed many tests and felt bad about that.The first year of the course was interesting and made me think that I really wanted to become a doc.It was all because the course was just an introduction to med science and we didn’t have to study anatomy or physiology or that damned biochemistry which I hate most.

We only had to study maths , biology ,chemistry and physics .I could pass all the tests coz I was interested in it. But now ,I blame myself for choosing a wrong course.But that wasn’t my fault , I’m inexperienced about that I just didn’t know what I should do and Just did what I thought was right.

Now ,I’m confused . I don’t know what to do. I spent a lot of time online taking personality and career aptitudes tests that led no where but confusion.I prayed and prayed and tired of waiting for the answer ,I guess what, God might be deaf or asleep.And then I started to ask myself .Think about that again and again.

I’ll continue to try to work out that damned most difficult problem I’ve ever seen in my life. I reviewed some math equations that I had to study when I was in high school and university ,just to refresh my brain.Play chess with computer ,just to arouse my brain.My brain seems already tired of doing such things and is unable to solve one of the life’s most important equation.I think I’ll just have to connect my brain to this damned computer using a USB( universal serial bus, might be able to transfer my brain and my thoughts into this computer, coz it’s a Universal Serial Bus) and and “right click” and refresh it and upload it to a server and use Google’s index bot to find the answer